Weird

Disclaimer: After reading this again, it really sounds like I'm on something haha. I promise I am not. That's actually what makes what I'm about to say even more interesting, at least to me; I can't blame it on anything else. Anyways, I hope someone doesn't get the wrong idea haha.

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So, something weird happened, again. It's like this: I'm sitting (remember, not under the influence of anything, at all) in my chair in the office, writing and listening to music, when this very strange sensation comes over me. It's happened before, but I thought this time I'd document it because it's so strange and surreal that it's often hard to describe later. Anyways, I get this weird feeling that my chair is suddenly too small; or that I'm suddenly too big for it. I have to be careful though because it's a difficult feeling to grasp when I notice it; almost as if it goes away when I pay too much attention to it. Anyways, it kind of feels like my legs and arms are too long and I have to reach up from this tiny seat (imagine a 6ft+ man sitting in an elementary school chair) to reach the keyboard. It's so surreal! And I kind of love it! In a weird way...

This isn't the first time I've felt something like this though. I remember, starting in youth, laying in bed, eyes closed, indulging this mental picture of me trying to pin something between my fingers. I could only see my fingers, complete darkness surrounding them, and it was usually a button, or even more commonly, a pen that I was trying to hold between my thumb and index finger. The weird thing was, in this little picture of mine, my fingers are HUGE and I can't quite get a hold of the object. I try and try, but can't seem to get a good grasp on it. I think it wouldn't seem so strange if it were just a dream, but it's not. It still happens to this day in fact, albeit not very often.

Hmmm... I wonder if anyone else gets these particular sensations.

My interest in the surreal actually goes beyond that too. I'm fascinated by sleep and dreams; I think because I have some pretty interesting sleep experiences myself. I don't have time to get into that part right now, but I will later for sure.

Oh and the whole huge fingers thing, reminds me of The Science of Sleep. I love that movie and the director (Michel Gondry) because he so deftly displays the art and emotion involved in the surreal.

Ok gotta go for real now.