Catching Up... The Beginning

Ok I can't keep putting this off haha; it's time to catch up. Like I said, there have been some VERY interesting turns in events lately. I think I'll break it into a few posts for brevity's sake but here it goes. So....

Pretty soon after I get back from the aforementioned out of town work trip, my wife asks if I could show her how to do something on the computer. I forget what it was now but anyways, I did in fact sit down with her at the computer and we got to work. So I'm filling out some online form and I type the word "I". All of the sudden Firefox pulls up the recently used phrase "I just want a one night stand, is that too much to ask???"

What???

We both looked at each other and I immediately start searching, scouring my brain, to try to figure out when I typed that and why I was so careless as to not erase the history. After the longest second and a half in the world, we both say "That's weird." immediately after I try to cover my mistake with the excuse that Google probably auto-populated a commonly used phrase. My wife says, "That's kind of sad that it's so common." To which I respond "Heh... yeah." (Not the most thrilling dialogue haha). A couple minutes pass and we keep working, when suddenly my brain stops panicking and starts thinking logically. One by one, the pieces start coming together. I realize that I work damn hard not to make sloppy mistakes like that. I think, "Wait, I don't use Firefox for that kind of stuff. I use Opera because she doesn't and she won't look there. I clean the history every time I close it too, just in case. And I've never typed anything about a one night stand. If anything I've been looking for more of a FWB/ongoing affair kind of thing. Could it be that she typed that? No way! It's not possible! Or is it?" Anyways, we finish the project and go about our evening, as nonchalantly as possible. A couple hours pass and finally I'm alone enough to check the history. Unfortunately for her, she's not terribly good at sneaking things and doesn't really know how to delete the history or cover her tracks. Anyways, I check and sure enough, there it is. She had started (and subsequently deleted) a profile at a couple hook-up sites looking for a one night stand; this taking place the time before this time that I was out of town.

What???

So far, I've decided not to say anything about it. Partly because she hasn't actually done anything (that I know of), partly because I'm shocked and don't believe she'll take the next step and partly because I'm doing the same thing! This may be bad but I'm actually pretty curious to see if she does pursue it further. 

Then, along with the search for a one night stand I also found a bunch of porn she had looked up, which I've talked with her about before. She looks up all these creampie videos and I'm like "I'll do that to you all day long! But for some reason you don't wanna fuck!" Sexual hypocrisy! haha 

I don't get any of this at all. I'm not really sure what's going to happen with us moving forward but I do know we are moving in opposite directions. More later....