Ugh, this right here is exactly why I hate when I do this whole "procrastination" thing I'm so famous for; the pipes get all backed up.
I, quite literally have about 15-20 drafts just sitting here because even though I took a break from posting, I'd still have these brief moments where I try to get back into it, jot a jumbled thought of a paragraph down and never complete the idea, much less post it. So, I'm now faced with the task of reading each one, realizing either I don't feel the way I did when I wrote it or that the information within is now completely incorrect (because so much time has passed since the original draft was made), then deciding whether it's even worth posting or not and trying to complete a thought from a month ago. These little breaks also screw the whole chronology of everything up because....
No. Fuck it. I'm putting way too much thought into this. I'm going against the original intention of this blog. I'm going to just put it out there. Fuck the order. Fuck the feelings that have since been voided. Fuck all of the complications. No more bullshit excuses. Just write.
Ok then, I will.

the point is to just write it out..... who cares if it makes sense....
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